Dear Mama,
Growing up, I was never sure if we would ever truly get along. The years I spent stomping up stairs and slamming doors are a testament to that. All insolence and obstinacy and impatience, you’d think I was a breed of fire all my own. It couldn’t have been easy for you. We argued often, and I account that to us being far too alike. Both of us stubborn and disagreeable at times, it was no wonder we were at each other’s throats. Now, as I sit at a desk 180 miles, 3 hours, and far too many phone calls away from home, I wish I could take back all the times I spent complaining about how much I wanted to “just move out already.” It’s all upside-down and turned around, as if my life is stuck inside some sort of perpetual tornado. Call me Dorothy, because I’m not sure where I’m at right now. If only it was as easy as clicking my heels and wishing for home. I miss you every day. I miss staying up into the early AM and watching the Food Network and QVC. I miss random shopping trips where we’d splurge more money on coffee than clothes. Most of all, I miss having the most important woman in my life just steps from my bedroom door. It took a little growing up and a lot of love, but there is no one I’d rather spend time with than my mama. You were never the mom who wore Rock Revivals, or tried too hard to act “cool,” or had that weird poofed up hairstyle that other moms have and I THANK YOU for that. Thanks for refusing to be my best friend because you’re “my mom not my friend,” for calling which friends would turn out to be fake, and for picking up the coffee tab. Love and miss you always.
It’s true, home is where your mom is.
-E